So I've been feeling like a total bum this last week... I've probably been praying more the last week than I have the last 6 months. I feel like there is a giant monkey on my back that I just cant shake off. Am I the only one out there that feels like I am not living up to my potential? It feels like I am settling to the middle of the pack, when before I had a fire in my belly to be the best.
I have a very specific career goal that I have been praying about. The problem is that it is extremely ambitious, and would require me to dig down very deep and find the "Old Me". I haven't seen the old me in quite a while, but I truly believe he is hanging out somewhere waiting to be resurrected.
I honestly love my job, Its the best job I have ever had by far. I feel like I am competent, and constantly improving. My co-workers are very cool, and my boss is the probably the nicest person I have ever met. The company I work for is by far the best company I could ever hope to work for. Money is decent, hours are long, benefits are awesome, but most importantly its a ministry so I can feel good about myself knowing that I'm working for the Lord. In my opinion nobody works at EMF that Jesus didn't specifically place there for one reason or another.
Although I thoroughly love and enjoy my job, the issue is that my position is not one that I think I want to stay in for years and years and years. Now to be fair I have only been in this position a little over one year, but I feel myself getting a little too settled in. I think its time to start getting busy, and get my mind right. As amazing as my job is, I feel like I need to find a position where I can start expressing myself creatively. The NOC is a huge room, but I think the talents and abilities of "Old Cory" refuse to be boxed in. Its time to get this thing started.
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