Deserving?

Hello Everyone! With Valentines only one day  in the past I don't think it is too late to tell everyone how much I love and appreciate my wife. I actually would like to come clean about something that I dont normally talk about, and that was the one time in almost seven years of our relationship that we broke up...

Senior year of high school I was in the best shape of my life, and at the pinnacle of my coolness, in my head. I thought I was all that, I had sweet roles in most of the school plays, it felt like everyone knew me. My head was growing at an alarming rate. Other girls were interested in me, and I was being a dumb teenager and told my self that I was too young to be tied down to the same girl as long as I was.

I started treating Elizabeth like garbage. I was mean, because in my mind all of the previous thing I mention were corrupting my heart and mind. I will never forget the day I broke up with her, it was probably my lowest moment, I was so mean and I did truly feel so terrible. In the weeks that followed, those who knew me could tell you, I lost my mind. I was flirting with all sorts of different girls, and being a complete and utter jerk... Until finally it hit me I was not happy.

I came to realize that I loved and needed her more than anything. And I begged for her back. I cried like a baby on the phone begging for her back, and finally she did. She took me back and we have been together ever since. The distant memories, are extremely embarrassing to me and I feel very ashamed for my past actions.

Recently a song hit me so hard that explains my true feelings on my past stupidity, and how grateful I am and how undeserving I was of her forgiveness. She had faith in me, and In love. She took back that stupid stupid kid, and that kid grew into me. And I would do anything for that woman, and will never let anything hurt her ever again.